It really is.
Below is an example of what my day is like while I am waiting to hear back on a submission.
Rebecca wakes up in the morning and runs to the bathroom (Too much information?) I’m 30 weeks pregnant with our third child, what can I say? The children get up and my amazing husband and I somehow tag team them into eating breakfast, getting dressed, and out the door so, at the moment (at least until the end of August) my older son can go to camp. I come home and stick on my computer.
Okay, I’ll pause here and admit for the sake of admitting to anxiety that sometimes I get the computer on before this moment. Sometimes, I get it on when I first get up. I cannot tell a lie. But let’s say it’s one of those days when I don’t and this is the point where it comes on.
I check my e-mail. If I’m lucky there is a note there from my amazing CP and some friends in addition to the bill reminders and the things some of the online stores think I should be buying from them. I check my groups and I sigh. Why the sigh, Rebecca, you might ask?
Because I am waiting on submissions.
Now, I can’t complain. Not at all. I just sent out the query letters. It could be months until I hear and that would still be reasonable.
But that doesn’t mean that I won’t check my e-mail another fifty times that day on the off chance that somehow the person reading the submissions read at lightening speed.
I can’t imagine being the editor in charge of deciding whose work gets signed and who’s doesn’t. It would be rough for me and the acquisition editors I have worked with have been amazing. So I don’t blame them when I’m sitting there hitting renew on the webbrowser and holding my breath.
Its my own anxiety, I know that. I had a writer advise me to just keep writing and forget about it. I assure you I am. I have a work in progress moving right along and two more stewing in my brain. I have other things I could be submitting. But none of that is going to erase the need to keep checking that lingers in the side of my brain where I know I’m still waiting to hear.
Is this just me? What do you do when you’re waiting?
On another note, next Monday, August 3rd, 2009 my first book will be released. It is called Her Wolf: The Westervelt Wolves Book 1. Here is my amazing cover.
Liquid Silver Books took a chance on me when they signed me to my first contract last winter. I will be eternally grateful for the chance. Now, I guess I get to wait to see what people think of my writing which I have to admit feels a little bit like opening my diary for the world to see. But that’s okay, it’s always been my dream.
So we’ll need to see which I find harder: waiting on submissions or waiting to see what people think.
Anyone out there with experience in this want to tell me which will be harder??